Every
thing must have its beginning celebrated. After all, it is a miracle – that
which was not, now is, like the first ‘1’ of the Fibonacci sequence. So, I am
celebrating the beginning of this computer, of this new period in my life,
creation and all.
Not
all beginnings are auspicious, however. Some are downright disheartening. But
if we had no moments to make us take stock and realise what is the real value
of what we are facing, what we are interested in, well then, we would simply
miss the chance to celebrate all those new chances!
I
am at a time where everything is a question mark, everything a chance,
everything a celebration. And yes, I am riddled with anxiety at the prospect,
plagued with doubts whether I am making the right choices, using up my chances
wisely. I am also living through moments of excruciating pain, of grief, or
sorrow for that which was, and now is not. Still, I keep going, aware of the
goal, the focus of my heart, the reality of my Being. Letting go of the present
is hard, but letting go of the reality we can, are entitled to, need to! create
– THAT is the true monster under the bed.
What
to do, then? After all, the pain now seems so much more real than any
dreamed-of heart-fulfilling reality. Why not just sit and lick my wounds, let
the future arrive when it will? If it is my promised desire, then it should
arrive to my doorstep by itself, surely. And if it doesn’t? Well, then it was
not to be; or I did something that made me unworthy; or someone took it from
me...
How
many excuses before we create what we want, rather than re-live, re-create what
has already been, what is, what leaves us wanting, fearful of its disappearance?
How many excuses before we stand up and take pride in our responsibilities?
Stand
up and celebrate!!
I
created all the beauty in my present, in my past, and in my future – I did it,
and it’s all mine, and how proud I am of it!
I
also created all the rough times, the fuck-ups, the mistakes – and they are all
mine, too, and how proud I am of them!
For
every thing in my life is an expression of myself. So I celebrate any new
chance to create anew.
What
have you created recently that you should celebrate?
